i am a twenty-three year old indie girl who lives with her parents, and one mischievous shiba inu.
i am not married, i have no children, and i didn't graduate from college. but..
i draw birds and robots; i read books; i laugh till i cry; i love until my heart bursts; i sometimes paint my face or arms with stripes if i'm bored; i create; i play guitar.
i am not impressive, but i am me.
i am addicted to Jesus Christ. He never stops loving, never stops giving, and there is always more of Him. He is the perfect addiction. no one else can satisfy.
These are all just mostly vague details. If you want me, come find me. But, I promise, at the very least, you'll think I'm nice.
"37 seconds."
"Great. Well done. Now we wait."
"No. We breathe. We pulse. We regenerate. Our hearts beat. Our minds create. Our souls ingest. 37 seconds, well used, is a lifetime. "
my sketchpad. guitar. apple products. books. loving God and loving others. tea. birds. djarum blacks. small furry animals. kurt halsey frederiksen. dinner parties & entertaining. daisies.
currently::
death cab. feist. margot & the nuclear so and so's. fleet foxes. owen. yelle. fine china. brontosaurus. jose gonzalez. iron & wine. mates of state. eisley. her space holiday. school of seven bells. animal collective. dear and the headlights. the weepies. arcade fire. the format.
the office. my boys.
juno. stranger than fiction. charade. hook. eternal sunshine. garden state. empire of the sun. closer. iron giant. turner and hooch. an affair to remember .eagle vs. shark. paris, je'taime. lars and the real girl. pineapple express. the life aquatic. the royal tenenbaums. mr. magorium's wonder emporium.
cars & trucks & things that go - richard scarry
little bear - maurice sendak
the giving tree - shel silverstein
the quietest cricket - eric carle
there is a monster at the end of this book - grover
...I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
So I love you because I know no other way than this:
where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.
-Sonnet XVII, Pablo Neruda
I love you more than all the flannelete and calico, candlewick, dimity, crash and merio, lussore, cretonne, crepon, muslin poplin, ticking and twill in the whole Cloth Hall of the world. I have come to take you away to my emporium on the hill, where the change hums on wires. Throw away your little bedsocks and your Welsh wool knitted jacket, I will warm the sheets like an electric toaster, I will lie by your side like the Sunday roast.
-Dylan Thomas
heretics don't call people to repent of sin. all you need to do to become a heretic is accommodate sin, tolerate sin, bless sin, sanction sin, excuse sin, not oppose sin. the first word of the Gospel is repent. that's what Jesus preached.
anyone that doesn't call their people to repentance does not love them, does not love the Lord, does not love the Word.
-mark driscoll
if you like it, then you shoulda put a
hug on it.
-joey comeau
alex: Jesus went back to bed. Two more weeks of winter.
matt: i don't have to make a mountain crash into the sea. i mean, if i can make a flower go "ploop" into a pool, then... then, i'm awesome.
me: oh, elton john.
alex: me too.
daniela: so first, i dont know who you are, but your picture is a ying-yang and that's reason enough to reject you.
daniela: well, let's lock the doors and make sure that you don't have anything important in the car.
me: check.
daniela: well look. here's my sock. let's put my sock on the dash. i mean, if they see it, they'll be like 'oh. there's a sock. they obviously have nothing good.'
me: ooo, we should get some pokey stix!
kristin: we should!
me: ...well, i don't want to die tonight.
kristin: (whispers) *i'm on my period. i need pokey stix.*
steve zissou: Now if you'll excuse me, I'm going to go on an overnight drunk, and in 10 days I'm going to set out to find the shark that ate my friend and destroy it. Anyone who wants to tag along is more than welcome.
me: i want my tattoo!
kristin: YES!!!!!!
*CHOMP* (she bit my arm)
me: please stop biting me...:/
kristin: I'M SORRY. I BITE WHEN I GET EXCITED.
"whom have i in heaven but You? and on earth there is nothing that i desire besides You. my flesh and my heart may fail but you are the strength of my heart and my portion forever."
-ps. 73:25-26
Monday, November 16, 2009
10:46 PM
and some days...
i just want to cry until my lungs give out.
until every breath is passionately released in a desperate cry for help.
because, honestly...
there's nothing worse than watching someone destroy himself
all the while with your hands tied behind your back.
at this point there is nothing i can do but pray.
pray and beg.
and cry and plead.
and hope.
and trust.
[from http://97secondswithgod.blogspot.com]
28 "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."I am not asking you to complete yourself and then come to me. I am asking you to come to me. Broken and burdened, infested with the most hideous lies about me and my nature. Covered in perpetual sin that you just can’t seem to shake. Because I don’t see that. I see Christ. I see the blood of my son all over you.
I know you think you need to work through your doubt before you come to me. But that’s not true. I can’t wait that long for you to come. And how ridiculous is that lie? That you have to figure me out, know me and trust in me without fail before you can come to me and get to know me. I do have gifts for you. Big crazy gifts, but the biggest of all is my presence.
That’s what I am inviting you into. My presence. That’s a gift I am inviting you into. My presence. That’s a gift I am going to give you every second for every hour of every day for the rest of eternity. Come to me. Come be in my presence. It’s so crazy to think you have to perfectly accept that gift before you can stand in that gift. I’m just saying, “Come stand in it. Bask in it.”
Come stand in it filthy and let me cleanse you.
Come stand in it broken and let me heal you.
Come stand in it drunk on doubt and fear and let me renew a spirit of confidence and trust in you.Just come stand in it.
Come stand in it covered with lies and misconceptions about who I am and who you are and let me reveal the truth.
Come stand in it worried and stressed and trembling and let me cover you with a peace that transcends all understanding.Come, just come.
Come stand in it with a past you can’t fix and a future you can’t look at without grimacing and I will comfort you in this very moment.Come.
oh.
how He loves us.
He is jealous for me.
loves like a hurricane,
i am a tree.
bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy.
when all of a sudden, i am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory.
and i realize just how beautiful You are and how great Your affections are for me.
we are His portion.
and He is our prize.
drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes,
if grace is an ocean,
we’re all sinking.
and heaven meets earth like an unforseen kiss,
and my heart turns violently inside of my chest,
i don’t have time to maintain these regrets,
when i think about,
the way…
... and oh.
how He loves us.
oh.
oh, how He loves us.
how He loves us, oh. <3
Saturday, November 14, 2009
1:10 PM
the newness of november and the mystery of december.
these next few weeks could either be a blur of good things and happy memories,
or they could hold some of the most painful experiences of my life thus far.
it's been seven weeks since i've held a secret in my heart,
and i fear that saying that line is already letting too much out.
but i'm just paranoid about everything these days, anyway.
but still.
i'm eagerly awaiting when my life can go one way or another.
even if it's bad.
just having the certainty of knowing that there is no waiting.
things will be put into motion soon that will eventually bring to the surface what i hold so dear.
but it may be with results that require me to sacrifice other very important, very close things to me.
and then when that is all taken care of,
it leads me to two other places of decision, that all weigh on the verdict of this last piece.
so it's going to be a pretty rough two months.
but don't get me wrong.
they're still magical.
they're still amazing.
i'm still very excited and happy.
and at least this time, regardless of what choice is made for me, i am settled in my head as to my actions. which is actually pretty nice in itself. i wasn't sure one way or the other, and bounced back and forth continually.
but now i know.
i know what i will do.
and God will take care of the rest.
and He will still provide.
and i've been a victim of my own hiccups before, so i know that i can trust Him to work it out for me.
but when it all comes down to it...
when you have to choose between two things you love...
i choose the one that loves me back.
Monday, November 9, 2009
11:46 PM
mmm.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
8:42 PM
this is how it works.
This is how it works: Your brain is the master controller. It has a tail called your brain stem. From it you have your spinal cord, and from that you have the nerves that go to all your organs from your most crucial to your barely noticeable. By God's grace He housed it in your strongest structure: your SPINE. By His wisdom He created areas for your nerves to come out of your spine to go to your organs.If the vertebrae are not in alignment the way He created, there will be pressure on your nerves. THAT is called subluxation. Subluxations are MORE serious than cancer, MORE serious than heart disease, MORE serious because they ARE what CAUSES cancer and heart disease as well as most everything else. Medications will not correct subluxations. Surgery will not correct subluxations. And without them being corrected, your body WILL build disease and your organs WILL begin to shut down. 100 times out of a 100 if i cut the nerves to your heart will it die. 100 times out of a 100 will it not function at 100% if those nerves are pinched. it is the SAME with everything else. If you are displaying symptoms already -- you are most likely subluxated and you are dying. IT IS THAT SERIOUS. You MUST get your spine checked either in our office or by a doctor who knows how to do spinal subluxation corrections. THAT'S JUST HOW IT WORKS.
Symptoms are different for everyone. but if you are already displaying fatigue, headaches, asthma, allergies, or more, OR if you are taking ANY kind of medication -- then there is a very high chance you have subluxation and it's robbing you of your life.
in the office, all the time people tell me "oh, i feel fine. i'm not subluxated." well. that's a very fancy point. feeling good is awesome. we all want to feel good. but the problem is, even in cases of the most horrible spinal misalignments, YOU WILL ONLY FEEL IT 6% OF THE TIME. why is this? because only 6% of your nerve are pain nerves, and the rest are information. can you tell me how your kidney feels? how about your liver? or your lungs? have you ever known someone that was riddled with cancer, but felt fine? or someone who was "doing well" and even got a thumbs up from the doctor just months before, but dropped dead of a heart attack? this is why you can't trust your feelings.
what would you rather do? wait until you get symptom, or diagnosis and then end up being too far past the problem to fix it? or get your spine checked and take care of the problem before it even develops. corrective chiropractic care REALLY is preventative care.
God knew exactly what He was doing when He created us. and when we live outside of the boundary lines He created (not getting adjusted, eating toxic food, not exercising etc.) THERE ARE CONSEQUENCES TO OUR ACTIONS. but, He is a LOVING God and a GOOD God. So He gave us chiropractic care to turn our power back on.
what is the difference between a dead person and an alive person? if your spinal cord/nerves control everything, and there is a spine in both people, what makes the difference? It is the BREATH OF LIFE that God breathed into every one of us. That power, that spark of His divine power, that is what allows us to heal.
THE POWER THAT MADE THE BODY, HEALS THE BODY.
it's just how it is. it's just how it works.
all medications cause destruction in your body. surgeries to remove "dysfunctional" organs never truly get to the cause of the problem. (subtracting out of course, all crisis-care situations such as car accidents, major trauma, etc.)
wouldn't you want to get the the cause?
if you have headaches, and you have to take the headache medicine... are your headaches truly gone? No. have you gotten to the cause of the problem? no. every time you miss a dose, you would still have headaches.
that's what we do in our office, we get the cause of the problems.
we want everyone to live as long as possible with such great, maximized lives, that they can serve God with every blink, breath, and heart beat. for as long as He has placed them on this earth.
God has provided chiropractic as a safe, natural way for people to get healthy. We work with the natural power of God and His natural design, not against it.
If you have never had your spine checked, you do not know if you are subluxated and building disease. It is very serious and very crucial for you to get it done. We have over 350 doctors (godly men and women that truly care for their communities and have a strong fear of the Lord) all over the United States. From right here in Sioux Falls, to Ankeny and Des Moines, to Florida and all the way to Washington.
You have to get yourself and your families checked. Especially your children.
God wants a healthy and happy life for everyone. After all, He "came to give LIFE and LIFE ABUNDANTLY!"
That's just how it works.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
10:21 PM
the boy.
oh, how i love him.
it is the truest of loves.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
10:21 AM
excuse me citizen, do you know the times?
dude.
it's friggin october!
double you. tee. eff.
where has time gone?
i feel like i only moved back here a few months ago... and apparently the number of those months is 12.
november 17th will mark my 1 year at work. that's super intense.
life is just madness.
my sister had a healthy baby boy (Tevah Zion is his name) a week ago, i've actually developed a social life, and in three days i'm leaving for orlando on a business trip.
here are some of my favorite pictures of the peanut.
ahaha. i love the last one. that's the outfit i bought for him in orlando the last time i went in july. i'm so excited he's actually in it! i kept hugging it when it was empty imagining him being inside it. and now he is. WOOT! 'cept i haven't friggin seen him at all! it was like BAM he was born, i held him for a moment, left and then here we are a week later and i haven't had time to go see him or anything. i plan on going today, but dani hasn't gotten back to my texts, so maybe she's still sleeping? i don't want to wake her up. plus, i can't stay long anyway. i have a work meeting at 7. but it'd be nice to see the little bugger before i jet off to sunnier lands.
also,
i am VERY hungry.
this is what happens when you wake up, roll over and grab your computer and then start typing. (that, and a lot of typos..)
i've been a bit grumpy the last few days. just one of those "i look horrible, all my clothes look stupid, i weigh how much?!, can't i just find something that looks cute" few days. i went shopping last night with the intention on finding lots of cute things, and i left with a few, but now, i'm pretty sure i'm gonna return most of it. it just wasn't awesome. and i hate spending money on things i don't love. 'cause then it means in like two days i'm gonna hate it, but i've most likely already taken the tags off and washed it. i was just really expecting to find some sweet sales, or at least tame my "new things" hunger.
although, it's all probably for the best. i should be following a stricter budget, but it's a weakness. new things just make me feel better when i feel crappy. which is bad. but, i'm hoping since i've identified it, it'll be easier to keep in check.
(i do actually need some more fall clothes though. i have some.. but dang, we do NOT have a heritage 1981 around here, and i hate shopping online when you can't try things on.
ah, well.
my sister texted me back. so i need to actually go.
sorry faithful readers, for such a lame entry.
i feel like i don't write or update anymore, and i'm extra crap at calling people and keeping in touch.
i'll try harder. (but honestly, probably not. i'm sorry.)
