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i always wanted to be a tenenbaum
you, know?
i am a twenty-three year old darling girl.
i am not married, i have no children, and i didn't graduate from college. but..
i draw birds and robots; i read books; i laugh till i cry; i love until my heart bursts; i sometimes paint my face or arms with stripes if i'm bored; i create; i play guitar. i am not impressive, but i am me.
i am addicted to Jesus Christ. He never stops loving, never stops giving, and there is always more of Him. He is the perfect addiction. no one else can satisfy.
These are all just mostly vague details. If you want me, come find me. But, I promise, at the very least, you'll think I'm nice.
things i like
(and i like a lot of things).
museums.// theme parks.// zoos.// aquariums.// road trips.// naps.// reading, and lots of reading. especially in unconventional places.// being silly.// going to goodwill to find hidden treasures.// traveling.// new things.// vintage things. record players, records, old cameras, old radios, vintage clothes, etc.// learning new things.// exploring new places.// building forts out of pillows and/or blankets.// getting mail.// finding new ways to stay organized.// old books that smell like yummy old books.// the smell of colored pencils, and crayons.// the internet, for without it, i might not have some very great friends that i love so dearly.// squirrels.// musicals.// live plays.// daisies, and trees.// thai food.// laughing.// socks.// people you meet that are so amazing they make you strive for greatness, not in competition, but just out of the pure fact that you've seen potential, and was found to be wasting yours.// living a simple life.// holding hands.// the rare moments in life where i don't feel self conscious.// watching home videos.// hideabeds.// thrift stores the size of target.// target for that matter.// poking people in the nose and saying "beep" at the same time.// candles and lanterns and kerosene lamps.// cupcakes.// showers, washing my hands, and brushing my teeth.// sitting on rooftops.// the feel of new shirts.// warm, summer nights.// making things for people.// old shoes from friends.// macaroni and cheese.// having great times of talk with God.// organic, antibiotic-free, preservative-free, artificial flavoring/color-free, no refined sugar or grain food. (just the way God intended.)// love.
things i listen to
currently:
death cab for cutie. feist. animal collective. modest mouse. owen. iron & wine. mother mother. eisley. her space holiday. school of seven bells. dear and the headlights. the weepies. arcade fire. the format.
and when my heart needs to beat
t-pain. rhianna. jay-z. kanye west. flo-rida. ne-yo. justin timberlake. (all hopefully edited.)
things i watch
when life slows for a moment.
the office. my boys. saturday night live. arrested development.
cinema light
that makes my heart glow
the royal tenenbaums. dedication. juno. stranger than fiction. hook. eternal sunshine. garden state. empire of the sun. caddyshack. ghostbusters. jurassic park. closer. iron giant. turner & hooch. an affair to remember. eagle vs. shark. lars and the real girl. pineapple express. the life aquatic. (500) days of summer. the hangover. up. and in all honesty, avatar in 3D was pretty amazing.
paper and ink
with feelings and thought
cars & trucks & things that go - richard scarry
little bear - maurice sendak
the giving tree - shel silverstein
the quietest cricket - eric carle
there is a monster at the end of this book - grover
crazylove - francis chan
awake - erwin raphael mcmanus
seizing your divine moment - erwin raphael mcmanus
the journey towards relevance - kary oberbrunner
no compromise - melody green
but you can't raise boys to be scared of life.
You got to brew some recklessness into them.
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oh.
Tuesday, April 25, 2006 @ 1:22 AM
jeska is awesome (1:21:47 AM): why am i so dumb sometimes?
mark (1:22:01 AM): you need new batteries
jeska is awesome (1:22:05 AM): oh.
yeah. that could be it.
i fear i have not been the brightest lately.
but faith and trust should work things out for me.
at least in that area.
i'm totally failing one of my classes.
since getting behind with the funerals, i've lacked the enthusiasm to get back on top of things. its just way overwhelming. luckily i'm ace-ing another class, so that should soften the blow to my parents. perhaps.
i need something different. but what? and how? and where?
i have a very dear friend Anna who has felt God leading her to hawaii. So she's going. just like that. ((although, i'm sure it wasn't that easy.)) I don't know if she has anything figured out about how and what and etc, but she at least is brave enough to step out and go.
i don't know if i'm that brave.
but i can't keep chasing rabbit trail careers like some unmedicated kid with ADHD. its beginning to waste money. but the flipside to waiting and thinking about what to do with life, is that i'm worried.. that if i stop.. if i'll ever go back to school. i don't want to be one of those moms that goes back when i'm like 35.
my dad is looking into taking positions with different companies. in a different state. if you know my family and know people who know my family, please keep this in confidentiality. nothing is for certain, but the more i talk with them the more certain i am that they're getting more set on leaving.
for the record, even if it means living in a box. i will NOT be going with them.
but how could i stay back? i'd need a stable job that payed well, and a decent place to live. where would i find such places? much prayer is needed if that is the case.
you know when you were a kid, and if you got lost you were always instructed to stay put? ((i was at least..)) i kinda feel like that. but i'm not sure if i should stay put, or keep trying to be found. i mean, do i be brave and try to figure out my life by doing, or to i be safe and figure out my life by waiting. dear friends i am not sure of this at all. if you believe in the God that saves, please pray for me.
More each day I'm getting a desire to leave. but without the where or how or what, i'm kinda stuck. and what does all this have to do with school?
my sister says i should just go for something. even if its something i don't end up doing, but doing something is better than doing nothing.
in my mind, if that something is something i don't end up doing.. its kinda the same thing as a nothing. follow me still?
what external dangers and risks await me if i leave?
and what internal dangers and risks am i allowing to take over me if i stay?
jimmy eat world always makes me feel better.
so what do i do? if anyone knows, please do not hold back.
i'm tired of feeling that i'm not living my life to the fullest. then i remember i'm not brave and that's what's holding me back. i'm terrified of failure, and i almost believe that my fear is what's causing me to fail. the very thing i'm scared of is sabatoging my success.
i don't want to move somewhere just to have it not work out and come back.
been there. it doesn't feel very good.
i don't want to start majoring in something just to fail out. been there. doing that.
i just don't know anymore.
*sigh*
read it back to me, pietro.
good reads or good websites.
Team Van Voorst - Paige updates her life as wife, mom, and general frugal lady!
LG & Brian Alsbury - LisaGrace writes about being a new wife, matters of the heart, budgets and goals, and general awesome things.
Changing Again - Insight to Danielle's crazy world.
The Alexanders - Jess and Mike moved to Japan. Here is their side of the world.
Simple Mom - A great website devoted to simplicity.
Remodeling This Life. - Simple. Frugal. Fabulous. (She did an AMAZING home remodel based soley on cash.)
Mint - The EASIEST, most-AMAZING, FREE way to build a budget.
design*sponge. - Creative and original design ideas.
Organizing Your Way. - A personalized approach to decluttering your life.
SmittenKitchen - Seriously some of the BEST recipes i've ever come across. SO awesome.
go, mordecai!
good buys.
rare bird finds. - a collection of unique items.
fredflare! - a shop full of fun and functionality.
[etsy] - if you want anything handmade or vintage, look here.
mighty goods. - an updated collection of fun things.
threadless. - tshirts designed by everyday people.
raygun. - formerly smash, this is an independant shop in des moines that specializes in awesome shirts.
wildcat. wild...cat.
other good websites.
questionable content. - my favorite webcomic by jeph jacques. (contains swearing and adult situations.)
postsecret. - updated every sunday, this blog contains secrets sent in by individuals all over the world.
cute overload. - bad day? stare at picture of cute things. it helps.
is that a tic-tac?
layout credit.
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