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i always wanted to be a tenenbaum
you, know?
i am a twenty-three year old darling girl.
i am not married, i have no children, and i didn't graduate from college. but..
i draw birds and robots; i read books; i laugh till i cry; i love until my heart bursts; i sometimes paint my face or arms with stripes if i'm bored; i create; i play guitar. i am not impressive, but i am me.
i am addicted to Jesus Christ. He never stops loving, never stops giving, and there is always more of Him. He is the perfect addiction. no one else can satisfy.
These are all just mostly vague details. If you want me, come find me. But, I promise, at the very least, you'll think I'm nice.
things i like
(and i like a lot of things).
museums.// theme parks.// zoos.// aquariums.// road trips.// naps.// reading, and lots of reading. especially in unconventional places.// being silly.// going to goodwill to find hidden treasures.// traveling.// new things.// vintage things. record players, records, old cameras, old radios, vintage clothes, etc.// learning new things.// exploring new places.// building forts out of pillows and/or blankets.// getting mail.// finding new ways to stay organized.// old books that smell like yummy old books.// the smell of colored pencils, and crayons.// the internet, for without it, i might not have some very great friends that i love so dearly.// squirrels.// musicals.// live plays.// daisies, and trees.// thai food.// laughing.// socks.// people you meet that are so amazing they make you strive for greatness, not in competition, but just out of the pure fact that you've seen potential, and was found to be wasting yours.// living a simple life.// holding hands.// the rare moments in life where i don't feel self conscious.// watching home videos.// hideabeds.// thrift stores the size of target.// target for that matter.// poking people in the nose and saying "beep" at the same time.// candles and lanterns and kerosene lamps.// cupcakes.// showers, washing my hands, and brushing my teeth.// sitting on rooftops.// the feel of new shirts.// warm, summer nights.// making things for people.// old shoes from friends.// macaroni and cheese.// having great times of talk with God.// organic, antibiotic-free, preservative-free, artificial flavoring/color-free, no refined sugar or grain food. (just the way God intended.)// love.
things i listen to
currently:
death cab for cutie. feist. animal collective. modest mouse. owen. iron & wine. mother mother. eisley. her space holiday. school of seven bells. dear and the headlights. the weepies. arcade fire. the format.
and when my heart needs to beat
t-pain. rhianna. jay-z. kanye west. flo-rida. ne-yo. justin timberlake. (all hopefully edited.)
things i watch
when life slows for a moment.
the office. my boys. saturday night live. arrested development.
cinema light
that makes my heart glow
the royal tenenbaums. dedication. juno. stranger than fiction. hook. eternal sunshine. garden state. empire of the sun. caddyshack. ghostbusters. jurassic park. closer. iron giant. turner & hooch. an affair to remember. eagle vs. shark. lars and the real girl. pineapple express. the life aquatic. (500) days of summer. the hangover. up. and in all honesty, avatar in 3D was pretty amazing.
paper and ink
with feelings and thought
cars & trucks & things that go - richard scarry
little bear - maurice sendak
the giving tree - shel silverstein
the quietest cricket - eric carle
there is a monster at the end of this book - grover
crazylove - francis chan
awake - erwin raphael mcmanus
seizing your divine moment - erwin raphael mcmanus
the journey towards relevance - kary oberbrunner
no compromise - melody green
but you can't raise boys to be scared of life.
You got to brew some recklessness into them.
The Lord has always been the One who stirs hearts to give of their resources and primarily I am asking Him to stir up those who will financially sow as partners with His kingdom advancing in and through my life.
Please take time to prayerfully consider becoming a monthly financial partner, allowing the Lord to pour through you, as He is the Source of all provision.
One-time donations are very helpful. Relational monthly partners who want to share in what God is doing in and through my life will provide enabling to focus wholeheartedly on His Word and His ways.
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meh.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008 @ 10:55 PM
so sunday, i started to not feel very well. i chalked it up to hearing about a tornado in ames, and just being all nervous and such and having all the extra acid from anxiety just filling my tummy. it happens frequently enough, so i didn't think much of it.
then i got sick multiple times that night, the next day before work and at work (didn't tell anyone about that...), and then some that night. this morning i was okay, and kept more food in me so, i thought i was fine. then after work i went back to apt. 310 to do some laundry since i still had free w/d over there. while i'm there, i just started to feel awful, like really awful. i eventually just left. left my laundry in my old apartment and figured i'd come back later. i get in the car and feel like i'm just going to be sick everywhere, so i'm trying to watch my breathing (i just noticed i switched tenses. sorry.) and i'm trying to distract myself so i call mom to have to talk to me. she starts talking and praying for me with my dad and i just get a full blow panic attack, i start sobbing in the car, hyperventilating... all this in addition to feeling like i'm going to just throw up everywhere. the stomach cramps start coming back and they're fierce as ever. my left arm goes numb, my face goes numb, and my right hand goes numb. (not sure why...) so that just starts making things worse. mom tries to calm me down and she does okay. i walk into my apartment and get really woozy, then make it up the stairs to the bathroom, start hyperventilating again and tell my mom barely that i'm about to pass out. i give her alex's number and i just sit on the floor a complete disaster. luckily, nothing happened. i had a few more spells, but recovered. i haven't felt that awful in a long, long time.
now, i'm just sitting with more apocalyptic stomach cramps and hoping to fall asleep. i'll probably put my ipod into my stereo and try to drift off to futurama or scrubs. but i need new episodes, i've seen all of them FAR too many times.
i'm wondering when is the time to go to the doctor and when is the time to just deal with it. i think that's my issue lately...
before i was one extreme: going to the doctor far too frequently when i just needed to suck it up. now i'm at the opposite: being in agony for weeks with a cold or sinus infection (or flu in this case) and not making sure it's something i need to go to the doctor for. i mean, doctors are expensive, man. there's no way, even with my insurance, i could just waltz into the ER and come away without monetary damage. but i can't seem to ever get an appointment at mcfarland, try as i might, without someone telling me they don't do in advance appts and only do day of. how can i schedule that for work if it's day of? i apparently don't understand.
oh, and in other news, i'm actually bummed about a small sort of thing. that thing i said i'd write about once it all cleared in my head. well, turns out, someone already had dibs (which, i might add is seriously unfair) and that dibs just overrules me entirely. which is ridiculous. i mean, i understand, and really, i do, it's just when dibs weren't clarified, you can't just call dibs later. like you can't call shotgun after someone's already attempting to sit down. and i'm just thinking that i don't cut it anyway.
mreh. these stomach cramps will be the death of me. 0 comments
read it back to me, pietro.
good reads or good websites.
Team Van Voorst - Paige updates her life as wife, mom, and general frugal lady!
LG & Brian Alsbury - LisaGrace writes about being a new wife, matters of the heart, budgets and goals, and general awesome things.
Changing Again - Insight to Danielle's crazy world.
The Alexanders - Jess and Mike moved to Japan. Here is their side of the world.
Simple Mom - A great website devoted to simplicity.
Remodeling This Life. - Simple. Frugal. Fabulous. (She did an AMAZING home remodel based soley on cash.)
Mint - The EASIEST, most-AMAZING, FREE way to build a budget.
design*sponge. - Creative and original design ideas.
Organizing Your Way. - A personalized approach to decluttering your life.
SmittenKitchen - Seriously some of the BEST recipes i've ever come across. SO awesome.
go, mordecai!
good buys.
rare bird finds. - a collection of unique items.
fredflare! - a shop full of fun and functionality.
[etsy] - if you want anything handmade or vintage, look here.
mighty goods. - an updated collection of fun things.
threadless. - tshirts designed by everyday people.
raygun. - formerly smash, this is an independant shop in des moines that specializes in awesome shirts.
wildcat. wild...cat.
other good websites.
questionable content. - my favorite webcomic by jeph jacques. (contains swearing and adult situations.)
postsecret. - updated every sunday, this blog contains secrets sent in by individuals all over the world.
cute overload. - bad day? stare at picture of cute things. it helps.
is that a tic-tac?
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