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i always wanted to be a tenenbaum
you, know?
i am a twenty-three year old darling girl.
i am not married, i have no children, and i didn't graduate from college. but..
i draw birds and robots; i read books; i laugh till i cry; i love until my heart bursts; i sometimes paint my face or arms with stripes if i'm bored; i create; i play guitar. i am not impressive, but i am me.
i am addicted to Jesus Christ. He never stops loving, never stops giving, and there is always more of Him. He is the perfect addiction. no one else can satisfy.
These are all just mostly vague details. If you want me, come find me. But, I promise, at the very least, you'll think I'm nice.
things i like
(and i like a lot of things).
museums.// theme parks.// zoos.// aquariums.// road trips.// naps.// reading, and lots of reading. especially in unconventional places.// being silly.// going to goodwill to find hidden treasures.// traveling.// new things.// vintage things. record players, records, old cameras, old radios, vintage clothes, etc.// learning new things.// exploring new places.// building forts out of pillows and/or blankets.// getting mail.// finding new ways to stay organized.// old books that smell like yummy old books.// the smell of colored pencils, and crayons.// the internet, for without it, i might not have some very great friends that i love so dearly.// squirrels.// musicals.// live plays.// daisies, and trees.// thai food.// laughing.// socks.// people you meet that are so amazing they make you strive for greatness, not in competition, but just out of the pure fact that you've seen potential, and was found to be wasting yours.// living a simple life.// holding hands.// the rare moments in life where i don't feel self conscious.// watching home videos.// hideabeds.// thrift stores the size of target.// target for that matter.// poking people in the nose and saying "beep" at the same time.// candles and lanterns and kerosene lamps.// cupcakes.// showers, washing my hands, and brushing my teeth.// sitting on rooftops.// the feel of new shirts.// warm, summer nights.// making things for people.// old shoes from friends.// macaroni and cheese.// having great times of talk with God.// organic, antibiotic-free, preservative-free, artificial flavoring/color-free, no refined sugar or grain food. (just the way God intended.)// love.
things i listen to
currently:
death cab for cutie. feist. animal collective. modest mouse. owen. iron & wine. mother mother. eisley. her space holiday. school of seven bells. dear and the headlights. the weepies. arcade fire. the format.
and when my heart needs to beat
t-pain. rhianna. jay-z. kanye west. flo-rida. ne-yo. justin timberlake. (all hopefully edited.)
things i watch
when life slows for a moment.
the office. my boys. saturday night live. arrested development.
cinema light
that makes my heart glow
the royal tenenbaums. dedication. juno. stranger than fiction. hook. eternal sunshine. garden state. empire of the sun. caddyshack. ghostbusters. jurassic park. closer. iron giant. turner & hooch. an affair to remember. eagle vs. shark. lars and the real girl. pineapple express. the life aquatic. (500) days of summer. the hangover. up. and in all honesty, avatar in 3D was pretty amazing.
paper and ink
with feelings and thought
cars & trucks & things that go - richard scarry
little bear - maurice sendak
the giving tree - shel silverstein
the quietest cricket - eric carle
there is a monster at the end of this book - grover
crazylove - francis chan
awake - erwin raphael mcmanus
seizing your divine moment - erwin raphael mcmanus
the journey towards relevance - kary oberbrunner
no compromise - melody green
but you can't raise boys to be scared of life.
You got to brew some recklessness into them.
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am i missing something?
Friday, November 28, 2008 @ 11:46 PM
why is it that every decent guy i come across is just a façade for someone who is on par with the rest of humanity? is it too much to ask for someone with a rock solid faith, or someone that has a fierce heart and a passion for God? maybe i'm being too proud and demanding too much for myself.
i don't know.
but i'm thinking that i'm questing for the unattainable.
it's either, good guy, not so good looks.
or good looks, not so good guy.
why is this?
am i shallow for hoping that i find my future husband physically attractive?
i sure as heck hope he finds me attractive.
i read a personal ad the other day on craigslist for fun (it makes me feel less alone in my loneliness) and it said "looks don't matter to me."
i thought about that. what if my husband thinks looks don't matter. it sounds like it'd be nice and in my favor, it really does. but then i really throught about it more, and i can't imagine if i were trying to look good and he was just like, "well, looks don't matter, honey."
i would like my looks to matter. i would like my husband to find me attractive and appealing.
and i know i'm misreading that statement. i know it's intended to be read as having appearance not be the judge of things. but i don't know.
anyway.
it just seems like solid, Christian men aren't easy to come by. or maybe they are and i'm looking in the wrong spots. i don't know. it's getting discouraging. not being single or anything.. i mean, i don't mind being single, really. it's nice to only have to worry about me. but it's getting discouraging and frustrating to find that no matter where i look, i'm not finding one guy that i could set myself up with. no options, no one with potential.
i know God has a plan, and that i'd just screw things up if i did them my way. after all he knows me better than i know myself.
it's just one of those frustrating things.
and i know they exist. i know it. my friends are married to them. but they're a rare and seemingly dying breed.
just gotta hold out and hold on, i guess.
but some encouragement would be nice.
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edit:
and on a super random note that i just thought of:
i had a dream last night where i tried to seduce steve martin and he totally wasn't having it. and then i was super bummed 'cause i was all embarrassed that he didn't want me. what is UP with my subconcious. prior to that dream i had a dream where i died, and didn't realize i was dead until i walked in on my own funeral. i saw myself in the casket, clearly not alive, and just balled up on the ground and cried and cried. i briefly remember even waking up in the real world crying over myself for a bit, and then going back to sleep. only one person could see me/talk to me and eventually after a few wake ups and back to sleeps my dream lost coherency. anyway.
i'm amused by dreams where i wake up crying. 'cause then there's nothing you can do but just keep crying until you get it all out and can go to sleep. sometimes my dreams are so sad, they'll wreck my whole day and i'll tailspin in depression for a few hours. it's super odd. 2 comments
read it back to me, pietro.
good reads or good websites.
Team Van Voorst - Paige updates her life as wife, mom, and general frugal lady!
LG & Brian Alsbury - LisaGrace writes about being a new wife, matters of the heart, budgets and goals, and general awesome things.
Changing Again - Insight to Danielle's crazy world.
The Alexanders - Jess and Mike moved to Japan. Here is their side of the world.
Simple Mom - A great website devoted to simplicity.
Remodeling This Life. - Simple. Frugal. Fabulous. (She did an AMAZING home remodel based soley on cash.)
Mint - The EASIEST, most-AMAZING, FREE way to build a budget.
design*sponge. - Creative and original design ideas.
Organizing Your Way. - A personalized approach to decluttering your life.
SmittenKitchen - Seriously some of the BEST recipes i've ever come across. SO awesome.
go, mordecai!
good buys.
rare bird finds. - a collection of unique items.
fredflare! - a shop full of fun and functionality.
[etsy] - if you want anything handmade or vintage, look here.
mighty goods. - an updated collection of fun things.
threadless. - tshirts designed by everyday people.
raygun. - formerly smash, this is an independant shop in des moines that specializes in awesome shirts.
wildcat. wild...cat.
other good websites.
questionable content. - my favorite webcomic by jeph jacques. (contains swearing and adult situations.)
postsecret. - updated every sunday, this blog contains secrets sent in by individuals all over the world.
cute overload. - bad day? stare at picture of cute things. it helps.
is that a tic-tac?
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