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i always wanted to be a tenenbaum
you, know?
i am a twenty-three year old darling girl.
i am not married, i have no children, and i didn't graduate from college. but..
i draw birds and robots; i read books; i laugh till i cry; i love until my heart bursts; i sometimes paint my face or arms with stripes if i'm bored; i create; i play guitar. i am not impressive, but i am me.
i am addicted to Jesus Christ. He never stops loving, never stops giving, and there is always more of Him. He is the perfect addiction. no one else can satisfy.
These are all just mostly vague details. If you want me, come find me. But, I promise, at the very least, you'll think I'm nice.
things i like
(and i like a lot of things).
museums.// theme parks.// zoos.// aquariums.// road trips.// naps.// reading, and lots of reading. especially in unconventional places.// being silly.// going to goodwill to find hidden treasures.// traveling.// new things.// vintage things. record players, records, old cameras, old radios, vintage clothes, etc.// learning new things.// exploring new places.// building forts out of pillows and/or blankets.// getting mail.// finding new ways to stay organized.// old books that smell like yummy old books.// the smell of colored pencils, and crayons.// the internet, for without it, i might not have some very great friends that i love so dearly.// squirrels.// musicals.// live plays.// daisies, and trees.// thai food.// laughing.// socks.// people you meet that are so amazing they make you strive for greatness, not in competition, but just out of the pure fact that you've seen potential, and was found to be wasting yours.// living a simple life.// holding hands.// the rare moments in life where i don't feel self conscious.// watching home videos.// hideabeds.// thrift stores the size of target.// target for that matter.// poking people in the nose and saying "beep" at the same time.// candles and lanterns and kerosene lamps.// cupcakes.// showers, washing my hands, and brushing my teeth.// sitting on rooftops.// the feel of new shirts.// warm, summer nights.// making things for people.// old shoes from friends.// macaroni and cheese.// having great times of talk with God.// organic, antibiotic-free, preservative-free, artificial flavoring/color-free, no refined sugar or grain food. (just the way God intended.)// love.
things i listen to
currently:
death cab for cutie. feist. animal collective. modest mouse. owen. iron & wine. mother mother. eisley. her space holiday. school of seven bells. dear and the headlights. the weepies. arcade fire. the format.
and when my heart needs to beat
t-pain. rhianna. jay-z. kanye west. flo-rida. ne-yo. justin timberlake. (all hopefully edited.)
things i watch
when life slows for a moment.
the office. my boys. saturday night live. arrested development.
cinema light
that makes my heart glow
the royal tenenbaums. dedication. juno. stranger than fiction. hook. eternal sunshine. garden state. empire of the sun. caddyshack. ghostbusters. jurassic park. closer. iron giant. turner & hooch. an affair to remember. eagle vs. shark. lars and the real girl. pineapple express. the life aquatic. (500) days of summer. the hangover. up. and in all honesty, avatar in 3D was pretty amazing.
paper and ink
with feelings and thought
cars & trucks & things that go - richard scarry
little bear - maurice sendak
the giving tree - shel silverstein
the quietest cricket - eric carle
there is a monster at the end of this book - grover
crazylove - francis chan
awake - erwin raphael mcmanus
seizing your divine moment - erwin raphael mcmanus
the journey towards relevance - kary oberbrunner
no compromise - melody green
but you can't raise boys to be scared of life.
You got to brew some recklessness into them.
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Please take time to prayerfully consider becoming a monthly financial partner, allowing the Lord to pour through you, as He is the Source of all provision.
One-time donations are very helpful. Relational monthly partners who want to share in what God is doing in and through my life will provide enabling to focus wholeheartedly on His Word and His ways.
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i'm writing a book.
Thursday, February 5, 2009 @ 10:41 AM
titled "how to become a soy-free vegan and not feel horribly alone (or attempt to kill yourself.) (or hide in the pantry with the door shut so no one can hear you crying.)"
seriously.
i had to call maika last night because i had no idea what i was doing. he's not a vegan anymore, but he does like to eat healthy, and when he was, he didn't eat soy.
but seriously, i mean, it's overwhelming when you know what's bad for you.
dairy is bad, meat is bad, refined sugar is bad, refined or processed anything is bad, chemically changed food is bad, ....seriously, i could go on and on.
so then it's like, "maybe i'll eat some peanut butter....---nope, can't it has soy lecithin, hydrogenated oils, and a bunch of stuff i can't pronounce. plus, it's not organic. okay, fine. so maybe, a salad? salads are good. oh but wait, dressing is bad. it's full of sugar, bad oils, and it's loaded with fat and probably has animal by-product in it. crap. okay.. well, refried beans are *okay* so, what about that with some cheese? wait. cheese is dairy. dairy is bad. just refried beans? maybe not..."
seriously. that's about when i started to cry. i mean, when you know it's garbage and poison it's hard to overlook it and eat it anyway. i mean, easing into it would be nicer, but that's like saying "well, i'm only going to eat half a garbage sandwich and then a piece of fruit." ... i don't want ANY garbage sandwiches anymore!
so, this is kind of what dinner looked like.
also, this picture is for the strong-stomached only. beware!
yikes. okay, let me tell you what that is.
'cause it looked like someone threw up on my stir fry.
it's broccoli, peas, and green beans cooked in some olive oil (but not at too high of a heat, otherwise you'll kill the enzymes and make them garbage) and seasoned with celery seed, garlic salt, orange peel, a little thyme, lemon pepper, and....something else, but i can't remember what. maika was guiding me through stuff. then i was going to put some pineapple in it, but we didn't have any, so i went with peach applesauce.. hence the "thrown up on" look.
then it was put over rice.
admittedly it was pretty okay. but it still tasted like i just seasoned a bunch of veggies and less of a meal. i mean, you could go to a thai restaurant, and order some veggie stir fry and it would be a meal. mine didn't work out so well.
so after maybe ten bites or so, i gave up and just ate a bunch of m&m's at the logic that you can spell "garbage" with the letters in "green beans, broccoli, and peas" but not with the letters "m&m".
i win, universe.
anyway. so i was really close to giving up. and i still might in a small sense. i mean, meat protein still isn't that good for you body, and it's harder to digest and take in nutrients than vegetable protein, but if you can get free-range, grass fed meat, then it's not necessarily *bad* for you.
most of it is the hormones, chemicals, and the fact that they feed cow's blood to calves. but hey, it's better than when they'd feed cow meat to cows, right? neat, huh?
but i'm not sure what to do otherwise. all of the cooking books i've seen don't offer any recipes without soy.
now, i'm still getting a few people that are telling me that soy is perfectly okay in small amounts.
while that may be true, that's like saying, "oh, this poison won't kill you in small amounts."
....mm..kay.
i mean, it's been linked to a slew of bad things, but even if it is perfectly okay, i don't feel like risking it any further. "small amounts of soy" are already in things you probably didn't even know it was. peanut butter, bread... i'm forgetting the rest.
anyway. it just doesn't seem like a good idea.
it's like when people try to justify doing bad things because in small amounts it's not going to send them to hell. you know, that one night of being drunk, that one night stand, the one time they all got high. ugh.
i feel like i'm preaching from a high horse here.
i'm sorry, i really don't mean it like that.
it's just madness out in the world and then it all got crazier.
i mean, the FDA is supposed to be married to Truth, and it's instead sleeping with Money in a bed of lies. the FDA is run by the companies they're supposed to be regulating. ugh. it's just awful.
dude. whoa. i got mega sidetracked.
so back to the food i was making and how bad it was...
this morning was a little easier.
and tastier.
stove cooked oatmeal with some brown sugar and blueberries, and a whole wheat banana muffin with peanut butter.
i finished the oatmeal, but it's hard getting through the banana muffin. i'm just not a banana girl. but i'm trying.
anyway. i'm proud of myself for breakfast at least. i did very well. and granted it's not 100% awesome, you do have to start out small. hopefully we'll get some unrefined sugar, and some organic peanut butter. but this will suffice until then.
and then i'm also making a list of easy breakfasts that i like that are soy free.
so far its:
-the oatmeal + blueberries + brown sugar
-peanut butter on whole wheat toast
-zucchini muffins (yumm.)
-organic ceral with almond milk. (little harder for me to adjust to. rice milk was okay but it was vanilla.. and i'm not used to vanilla milk. but the almond milk is plain. which is interesting..)
-bananas and strawberries, or other berries. (berries are SO good for you! antioxidants!)
i figured i can come up with a few more and then cycle through them until i find something better.
anyway.
i'm sorry my blogs aren't more interesting anymore.
they're all about either work or eating healthy.
but that's kind of what life is like for me right now.
i love you, blogland.
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good reads or good websites.
Team Van Voorst - Paige updates her life as wife, mom, and general frugal lady!
LG & Brian Alsbury - LisaGrace writes about being a new wife, matters of the heart, budgets and goals, and general awesome things.
Changing Again - Insight to Danielle's crazy world.
The Alexanders - Jess and Mike moved to Japan. Here is their side of the world.
Simple Mom - A great website devoted to simplicity.
Remodeling This Life. - Simple. Frugal. Fabulous. (She did an AMAZING home remodel based soley on cash.)
Mint - The EASIEST, most-AMAZING, FREE way to build a budget.
design*sponge. - Creative and original design ideas.
Organizing Your Way. - A personalized approach to decluttering your life.
SmittenKitchen - Seriously some of the BEST recipes i've ever come across. SO awesome.
go, mordecai!
good buys.
rare bird finds. - a collection of unique items.
fredflare! - a shop full of fun and functionality.
[etsy] - if you want anything handmade or vintage, look here.
mighty goods. - an updated collection of fun things.
threadless. - tshirts designed by everyday people.
raygun. - formerly smash, this is an independant shop in des moines that specializes in awesome shirts.
wildcat. wild...cat.
other good websites.
questionable content. - my favorite webcomic by jeph jacques. (contains swearing and adult situations.)
postsecret. - updated every sunday, this blog contains secrets sent in by individuals all over the world.
cute overload. - bad day? stare at picture of cute things. it helps.
is that a tic-tac?
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