scrappin', yellin' & mixin' it up
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i always wanted to be a tenenbaum
you, know?
i am a twenty-three year old darling girl.
i am not married, i have no children, and i didn't graduate from college. but..
i draw birds and robots; i read books; i laugh till i cry; i love until my heart bursts; i sometimes paint my face or arms with stripes if i'm bored; i create; i play guitar.
i am not impressive, but i am me.
i am addicted to Jesus Christ. He never stops loving, never stops giving, and there is always more of Him. He is the perfect addiction. no one else can satisfy.
These are all just mostly vague details. If you want me, come find me. But, I promise, at the very least, you'll think I'm nice.
things i like
(and i like a lot of things).
museums.//
theme parks.//
zoos.//
aquariums.//
road trips.//
naps.//
reading, and lots of reading. especially in unconventional places.//
being silly.//
going to goodwill to find hidden treasures.//
traveling.//
new things.//
vintage things. record players, records, old cameras, old radios, vintage clothes, etc.//
learning new things.//
exploring new places.//
building forts out of pillows and/or blankets.//
getting mail.//
finding new ways to stay organized.//
old books that smell like yummy old books.//
the smell of colored pencils, and crayons.//
the internet, for without it, i might not have some very great friends that i love so dearly.//
squirrels.//
musicals.//
live plays.//
daisies, and trees.//
thai food.//
laughing.//
socks.//
people you meet that are so amazing they make you strive for greatness, not in competition, but just out of the pure fact that you've seen potential, and was found to be wasting yours.//
living a simple life.//
holding hands.//
the rare moments in life where i don't feel self conscious.//
watching home videos.//
hideabeds.//
thrift stores the size of target.//
target for that matter.//
poking people in the nose and saying "beep" at the same time.//
candles and lanterns and kerosene lamps.//
cupcakes.//
showers, washing my hands, and brushing my teeth.//
sitting on rooftops.//
the feel of new shirts.//
warm, summer nights.//
making things for people.//
old shoes from friends.//
macaroni and cheese.//
having great times of talk with God.//
organic, antibiotic-free, preservative-free, artificial flavoring/color-free, no refined sugar or grain food. (just the way God intended.)//
love.
things i listen to
currently:
death cab for cutie. feist. animal collective. modest mouse. owen. iron & wine. mother mother. eisley. her space holiday. school of seven bells. dear and the headlights. the weepies. arcade fire. the format.
and when my heart needs to beatt-pain. rhianna. jay-z. kanye west. flo-rida. ne-yo. justin timberlake. (all hopefully edited.)
things i watch
when life slows for a moment.
the office. my boys. saturday night live. arrested development.
cinema light
that makes my heart glow
the royal tenenbaums. dedication. juno. stranger than fiction. hook. eternal sunshine.
garden state. empire of the sun. caddyshack. ghostbusters. jurassic park. closer. iron giant.
turner & hooch. an affair to remember. eagle vs. shark. lars and the real girl. pineapple express.
the life aquatic. (500) days of summer. the hangover. up.
and in all honesty, avatar in 3D was pretty amazing.
paper and ink
with feelings and thought
cars & trucks & things that go - richard scarry
little bear - maurice sendak
the giving tree - shel silverstein
the quietest cricket - eric carle
there is a monster at the end of this book - grover
crazylove - francis chan
awake - erwin raphael mcmanus
seizing your divine moment - erwin raphael mcmanus
the journey towards relevance - kary oberbrunner
no compromise - melody green
but you can't raise boys to be scared of life.
You got to brew some recklessness into them.
The Lord has always been the One who stirs hearts to give of their resources and primarily I am asking Him to
stir up those who will financially sow as partners with His kingdom advancing in and through my life.
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all the things that i am not.
Saturday, October 3, 2009 @ 8:28 AM
Love is patient and kind.
Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude.
It does not demand its own way.
It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged.
It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out.
Love never gives up,
never loses faith,
is always hopeful,
and endures through every circumstance.
i used to say that the two things i was good at and enjoyed doing was loving God and loving people.
i now, finally, understand these verses.
i do not love.
i'm not patient, i'm frequently unkind, i am jealous, prideful and rude, i am highly irritable and heaven help you if you've wronged me. i have a hard time letting go. i would like to say i always stand up for justice, but there are times when i have been excited about someone "getting something that they deserved", whether it was true or not.
i always give up.
i never have faith.
i lose my hope constantly.
and as far as my endurance... it's pretty weak.
i always found the 1 cor 13 passage to be trivial and boring. i think it was partially due to having it forced into my brain constantly from childhood to like.. sophomore year. we memorized it constantly.
it just became a series of words. the strength and power that God put in it, faded away to nothing more than some ink and some scrawlings.
how could i ever return love to a God that loves so conditionally, when there are so many obvious limits to my love?
He always gives; i always take.
He is always there; i frequently disappear.
He will wait for me; i will wait for maybe a few minutes, and if He hasn't magically shown up or answered my prayer instantaneously, i'll get frustrated and passive agressive.
He will always love me whether or not i am good; i will always judge His goodness by MY standards and make a decision of whether or not to love Him based on that.
this is all very eye opening and convicting.
i'm not sure where my heart has been these last few days.
it had a bit of a mind of it's own. which, in my case, is never a good idea to let that thing run around. it has to be kept under heavy security, and i'll let my good ol' brain go back to callin' the shots.. i'm much less neurotic and paranoid that way.
...and even through all this, He loves me.
He loves me.
I'm one of the biggest messes on the face of the earth and He loves me.
"You say, I've got you my baby
I've got you
it's quite the mess you're in
but it's nothing Love can't fix
so sit here upon my shoulders
and watch as it all unwinds
You are making me a mountain
making me a mountain
that cannot be shaken."
Trust - Kristene Mueller (youtube it.)
God, help me be that mountain.
It's not going to be easy, and it's probably going to sting quite a bit.
But through Your strength, and Your power, and Your Spirit, I know
I can be exactly who You want me to be.
Help me to learn how sweet it is to trust You. To know You've got everything
under control.
But even more, teach me how to love, with a Love that's never failing.
I'm sorry I constantly feel like a waste. When I feel that way, all I'm really
doing is crawling up into your lap so I can slap You for the beautiful
creation I am. It's a bold, audacious move. And I'm sorry. You don't
create garbage. You don't create junk. You have given me beauty for these
ashes and strength for all of my fear. Send Your Holy Spirit to counsel me
and provide me with the Peace I so desperately desire. Send Your Holy
Fire to burn away all that isn't good in my life and my heart.
Completely consume me.
You are all I want.
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read it back to me, pietro.
good reads or good websites.
Team Van Voorst - Paige updates her life as wife, mom, and general frugal lady!
LG & Brian Alsbury - LisaGrace writes about being a new wife, matters of the heart, budgets and goals, and general awesome things.
Changing Again - Insight to Danielle's crazy world.
The Alexanders - Jess and Mike moved to Japan. Here is their side of the world.
Simple Mom - A great website devoted to simplicity.
Remodeling This Life. - Simple. Frugal. Fabulous. (She did an AMAZING home remodel based soley on cash.)
Mint - The EASIEST, most-AMAZING, FREE way to build a budget.
design*sponge. - Creative and original design ideas.
Organizing Your Way. - A personalized approach to decluttering your life.
SmittenKitchen - Seriously some of the BEST recipes i've ever come across. SO awesome.
go, mordecai!
good buys.
rare bird finds. - a collection of unique items.
fredflare! - a shop full of fun and functionality.
[etsy] - if you want anything handmade or vintage, look here.
mighty goods. - an updated collection of fun things.
threadless. - tshirts designed by everyday people.
raygun. - formerly smash, this is an independant shop in des moines that specializes in awesome shirts.
wildcat. wild...cat.
other good websites.
questionable content. - my favorite webcomic by jeph jacques. (contains swearing and adult situations.)
postsecret. - updated every sunday, this blog contains secrets sent in by individuals all over the world.
cute overload. - bad day? stare at picture of cute things. it helps.
is that a tic-tac?
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