scrappin', yellin' & mixin' it up
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i always wanted to be a tenenbaum
you, know?
i am a twenty-three year old darling girl.
i am not married, i have no children, and i didn't graduate from college. but..
i draw birds and robots; i read books; i laugh till i cry; i love until my heart bursts; i sometimes paint my face or arms with stripes if i'm bored; i create; i play guitar.
i am not impressive, but i am me.
i am addicted to Jesus Christ. He never stops loving, never stops giving, and there is always more of Him. He is the perfect addiction. no one else can satisfy.
These are all just mostly vague details. If you want me, come find me. But, I promise, at the very least, you'll think I'm nice.
things i like
(and i like a lot of things).
museums.//
theme parks.//
zoos.//
aquariums.//
road trips.//
naps.//
reading, and lots of reading. especially in unconventional places.//
being silly.//
going to goodwill to find hidden treasures.//
traveling.//
new things.//
vintage things. record players, records, old cameras, old radios, vintage clothes, etc.//
learning new things.//
exploring new places.//
building forts out of pillows and/or blankets.//
getting mail.//
finding new ways to stay organized.//
old books that smell like yummy old books.//
the smell of colored pencils, and crayons.//
the internet, for without it, i might not have some very great friends that i love so dearly.//
squirrels.//
musicals.//
live plays.//
daisies, and trees.//
thai food.//
laughing.//
socks.//
people you meet that are so amazing they make you strive for greatness, not in competition, but just out of the pure fact that you've seen potential, and was found to be wasting yours.//
living a simple life.//
holding hands.//
the rare moments in life where i don't feel self conscious.//
watching home videos.//
hideabeds.//
thrift stores the size of target.//
target for that matter.//
poking people in the nose and saying "beep" at the same time.//
candles and lanterns and kerosene lamps.//
cupcakes.//
showers, washing my hands, and brushing my teeth.//
sitting on rooftops.//
the feel of new shirts.//
warm, summer nights.//
making things for people.//
old shoes from friends.//
macaroni and cheese.//
having great times of talk with God.//
organic, antibiotic-free, preservative-free, artificial flavoring/color-free, no refined sugar or grain food. (just the way God intended.)//
love.
things i listen to
currently:
death cab for cutie. feist. animal collective. modest mouse. owen. iron & wine. mother mother. eisley. her space holiday. school of seven bells. dear and the headlights. the weepies. arcade fire. the format.
and when my heart needs to beatt-pain. rhianna. jay-z. kanye west. flo-rida. ne-yo. justin timberlake. (all hopefully edited.)
things i watch
when life slows for a moment.
the office. my boys. saturday night live. arrested development.
cinema light
that makes my heart glow
the royal tenenbaums. dedication. juno. stranger than fiction. hook. eternal sunshine.
garden state. empire of the sun. caddyshack. ghostbusters. jurassic park. closer. iron giant.
turner & hooch. an affair to remember. eagle vs. shark. lars and the real girl. pineapple express.
the life aquatic. (500) days of summer. the hangover. up.
and in all honesty, avatar in 3D was pretty amazing.
paper and ink
with feelings and thought
cars & trucks & things that go - richard scarry
little bear - maurice sendak
the giving tree - shel silverstein
the quietest cricket - eric carle
there is a monster at the end of this book - grover
crazylove - francis chan
awake - erwin raphael mcmanus
seizing your divine moment - erwin raphael mcmanus
the journey towards relevance - kary oberbrunner
no compromise - melody green
but you can't raise boys to be scared of life.
You got to brew some recklessness into them.
The Lord has always been the One who stirs hearts to give of their resources and primarily I am asking Him to
stir up those who will financially sow as partners with His kingdom advancing in and through my life.
Please take time to prayerfully consider becoming a monthly financial partner, allowing the Lord to pour through you, as He is the Source of all provision.
One-time donations are
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So now what? : Overwhelmed, Underwhelmed and just Whelmed.
Thursday, February 25, 2010 @ 9:23 AM
[photo credit: unknown]There's a quote in the movie "10 things I hate about you" where one of the characters says, "I know you can be overwhelmed and underwhelmed.. but can you just be 'whelmed'?" And the other replies with, "I think you can in Europe."
It's always been one of the most amusing quotes to me, but I think just being 'whelmed' can also happen here in the States. There is a real definition for it that is very similar to 'overwhelmed' so my definition would look something like this: "being stuck between adventure and reality, unsure as to where the line is between completely following your heart, but also wanting to make sure you're solidly grounded." Does that make sense?
I'm not so overwhelmed in the sense that I want to give up or quit trying to find my passion, or anything like that... but I am struggling to either fight reality or face reality and wondering if you can even do both. How serious do I take myself with this whole bakery thing...? Where is the spot where you say, "okay, following your dreams is a great idea, but let's actually crash back to the real world." Anyone else ever feel that way?
I think the best way to deal with being whelmed is to do exactly what that image says, "Close your eyes; Clear your heart; Let it go."
So what if I don't end up having a bakery? So what if I never actually finish anything I set out to do? What happens if everything I completely set my mind on fails?
It doesn't matter. I'm going to try and not insert any more pop culture references in this, and I am not by any means a Miley Cyrus fan... but "it's not about how fast I get there, it's not about what's waiting on the other side -- it's the climb." Whatever it takes to be you, or for me to be me, is not where the focus should be. It's never on accomplishments, or paychecks, or degrees. It's about all of the internal transformation that occurs when you step into a life of something different-- when you accept the challenge that lies at your feet.
Being brave looks different for everyone. Whether it's going off into battle, or ... more recently for me ... returning to my work place (which stung, broke my heart again, and I even had to sneak off to the exam room to cry before I could compose myself.) and countless examples of how being brave looks like for you.
But that's exactly the point. Stepping out of your comfort zone is of course a struggle. If you want your life to look different, YOU HAVE TO DO THINGS DIFFERENTLY. You may have to go to different places, look in different areas --- do whatever it takes to not get stuck in the same life that you're so desperately trying to leave.
What will my future hold? I'm not sure. But I know that regardless of what happens, or what I choose, as long as I keep moving forward I will be the person I'm supposed to be. The only way that would fail would be if I stopped moving. So if I could add on to that quote, "Close your eyes; Clear your heart; Let it go; And always keep moving."
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good reads or good websites.
Team Van Voorst - Paige updates her life as wife, mom, and general frugal lady!
LG & Brian Alsbury - LisaGrace writes about being a new wife, matters of the heart, budgets and goals, and general awesome things.
Changing Again - Insight to Danielle's crazy world.
The Alexanders - Jess and Mike moved to Japan. Here is their side of the world.
Simple Mom - A great website devoted to simplicity.
Remodeling This Life. - Simple. Frugal. Fabulous. (She did an AMAZING home remodel based soley on cash.)
Mint - The EASIEST, most-AMAZING, FREE way to build a budget.
design*sponge. - Creative and original design ideas.
Organizing Your Way. - A personalized approach to decluttering your life.
SmittenKitchen - Seriously some of the BEST recipes i've ever come across. SO awesome.
go, mordecai!
good buys.
rare bird finds. - a collection of unique items.
fredflare! - a shop full of fun and functionality.
[etsy] - if you want anything handmade or vintage, look here.
mighty goods. - an updated collection of fun things.
threadless. - tshirts designed by everyday people.
raygun. - formerly smash, this is an independant shop in des moines that specializes in awesome shirts.
wildcat. wild...cat.
other good websites.
questionable content. - my favorite webcomic by jeph jacques. (contains swearing and adult situations.)
postsecret. - updated every sunday, this blog contains secrets sent in by individuals all over the world.
cute overload. - bad day? stare at picture of cute things. it helps.
is that a tic-tac?
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