i always wanted to be a tenenbaum
you, know?
i am a twenty-three year old darling girl.
i am not married, i have no children, and i didn't graduate from college. but..
i draw birds and robots; i read books; i laugh till i cry; i love until my heart bursts; i sometimes paint my face or arms with stripes if i'm bored; i create; i play guitar.
i am not impressive, but i am me.
i am addicted to Jesus Christ. He never stops loving, never stops giving, and there is always more of Him. He is the perfect addiction. no one else can satisfy.
These are all just mostly vague details. If you want me, come find me. But, I promise, at the very least, you'll think I'm nice.
things i like
(and i like a lot of things).
museums.//
theme parks.//
zoos.//
aquariums.//
road trips.//
naps.//
reading, and lots of reading. especially in unconventional places.//
being silly.//
going to goodwill to find hidden treasures.//
traveling.//
new things.//
vintage things. record players, records, old cameras, old radios, vintage clothes, etc.//
learning new things.//
exploring new places.//
building forts out of pillows and/or blankets.//
getting mail.//
finding new ways to stay organized.//
old books that smell like yummy old books.//
the smell of colored pencils, and crayons.//
the internet, for without it, i might not have some very great friends that i love so dearly.//
squirrels.//
musicals.//
live plays.//
daisies, and trees.//
thai food.//
laughing.//
socks.//
people you meet that are so amazing they make you strive for greatness, not in competition, but just out of the pure fact that you've seen potential, and was found to be wasting yours.//
living a simple life.//
holding hands.//
the rare moments in life where i don't feel self conscious.//
watching home videos.//
hideabeds.//
thrift stores the size of target.//
target for that matter.//
poking people in the nose and saying "beep" at the same time.//
candles and lanterns and kerosene lamps.//
cupcakes.//
showers, washing my hands, and brushing my teeth.//
sitting on rooftops.//
the feel of new shirts.//
warm, summer nights.//
making things for people.//
old shoes from friends.//
macaroni and cheese.//
having great times of talk with God.//
organic, antibiotic-free, preservative-free, artificial flavoring/color-free, no refined sugar or grain food. (just the way God intended.)//
love.
things i listen to
currently:
death cab for cutie. feist. animal collective. modest mouse. owen. iron & wine. mother mother. eisley. her space holiday. school of seven bells. dear and the headlights. the weepies. arcade fire. the format.
and when my heart needs to beatt-pain. rhianna. jay-z. kanye west. flo-rida. ne-yo. justin timberlake. (all hopefully edited.)
things i watch
when life slows for a moment.
the office. my boys. saturday night live. arrested development.
cinema light
that makes my heart glow
the royal tenenbaums. dedication. juno. stranger than fiction. hook. eternal sunshine.
garden state. empire of the sun. caddyshack. ghostbusters. jurassic park. closer. iron giant.
turner & hooch. an affair to remember. eagle vs. shark. lars and the real girl. pineapple express.
the life aquatic. (500) days of summer. the hangover. up.
and in all honesty, avatar in 3D was pretty amazing.
paper and ink
with feelings and thought
cars & trucks & things that go - richard scarry
little bear - maurice sendak
the giving tree - shel silverstein
the quietest cricket - eric carle
there is a monster at the end of this book - grover
crazylove - francis chan
awake - erwin raphael mcmanus
seizing your divine moment - erwin raphael mcmanus
the journey towards relevance - kary oberbrunner
no compromise - melody green
but you can't raise boys to be scared of life.
You got to brew some recklessness into them.
The Lord has always been the One who stirs hearts to give of their resources and primarily I am asking Him to
stir up those who will financially sow as partners with His kingdom advancing in and through my life.
Please take time to prayerfully consider becoming a monthly financial partner, allowing the Lord to pour through you, as He is the Source of all provision.
One-time donations are
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Tuesday, March 23, 2010 @ 12:28 PM
*blows dust off the mac.*
whoa.
it's.. it's been a while.
it's not so much as i've neglected my journal as much as... there's not much to write.
the series has temporarily been put on hold for a while. it's kind of hard to write something somewhat inspirational when you're not feeling very inspired. i might come back to it; we'll see.
to the new readers i have gained, i'm sorry there hasn't been much of an update. this entry is for you! and for you old readers, thanks for checking in a bit here and there. (i have a program that tells me what city/town someone is from and the number of visits i get from them. i can seeeee youuuuu! haha. now i can creep back!)
spring seems to have arrived -- anyone else noticed?
spence and i went to his parents ranch in the hills for what was supposed to be just a few days and turned into a full blown twelve day adventure! i'll have some pictures for you when we can get an adapter cord for his camera. we *finally* got a cute picture of us! 'cept my hair is poofin' out a little weird on one side so it makes my head look ginormo.. but i can ignore that. :)
we went hiking up these two big mountainy things (..not real mountains, but they were still really high up once we got to the top.) and the view was pretty awesome. i'm still not entirely sold on the hills. he LOVES it out there. it's his utopia. i'm less interested in conifer trees and forests, but more deciduous and such. like so:

versus

so, like leaves instead of pine trees and meadows instead of rocks.
i wish i could connect with it like he does. he was having a blast hiking and rock climbing, whereas i was just "..meh" at most points. not to complain though, it was fun and beautiful at times. and i was glad to do anything he enjoyed with him. just one of those things i guess.. whatever.
and it was always fun to hang out with the kids, although being back, i do appreciate mornings not being woken up by four year olds with the necessity to update you on every second of their lives. :) kids are hilarious sometimes.
but the good news about this, is since i explored his playground with him, he wants to do a grand tour of iowa! and soon. like we could go tomorrow maybe. we're working it all out. since i don't have a job, and he just found a new one and has taken a few weeks off between starting we wanted to just go to places and get outta here for a bit. but he wants proof that iowa isn't just flat cornfields. which, it most certainly is NOT. granted, it's not the black hills, but we're not just flat cornfields. i'm thinking this is how it will all go:
drive to ames, do the whole ames/des moines scene for maybe 2 days, then go to iowa city, do the cedar rapids, iowa city, and mt. pleasant for maybe 3 days? and then come back. i'd love to show him the cool nature of the NE, but i don't know the area well enough, so perhaps not. i'm not sure where i'll go or what we'll do, but i'd be glad for suggestions.
in other news,
last night i found the first spider of spring. i creeped around it, grabbed my super toxic spider killer, and watched it die. but then the freaking out started. first the usual: "omg, i bet there's more! i bet they're in my bed! i bet they're in my clothes! i sleep under a window, are they going to crawl on my head!? what's that tickling my ankle!?! oh. it's just fabric. what's THAT on the floor!? oh. it's just a fuzzy. can you build spider-proof houses? hm. let's research this. AUAUGHGHGHG PICTURES OF SPIDERS! AIEEEEEEE. well now i can't sleep." then i tried to sleep but kept waking up because one of the sites said "spiders are nocturnal" well, thanks. now i can never sleep again. so lame. but now i have to deep clean my entire room since spiders like to be in heaps of clothes or shoes, and they apparently really enjoy cardboard since it's a wood product and spiders like wood? whatever. i don't really know much about that, and i'm not entirely interested. *shudder*
but the other freak out came at the fact that i'm spraying a neurotoxin on a bug to kill it. toxic for bugs usually = toxic for people and pets. i happen to be and own one of those. (you choose.) so then i was looking up natural killers and.. they seem to have some good suggestions, but i'm so tied to my can of poison...i'm not sure i can give it up so easily. but i know it will be better for me. i found these: www.spidatraps.com that seem okay, but you can still only put them out at night and away from pets. so i'm not sure how that will work with le puppy. but they seem pretty ...decent. my only qualm is that he writes how spiders cross rooms differently every time and in the morning he'll wake up and find 2-3 spiders caught in the trap. there is some mental comfort in knowing he caught the damn things, but 2-3 spiders every NIGHT?! goodness sakes! that would freak me out more. i think i like ignorance at the amount of spiders in my house. i think i'm going to try some of the more natural methods, but i still could never bring myself to squishing it on my own. that... is too terrifying to think about. maybe i should get one of those little bug vacuum thingers. i don't know.
in small news: NEW MOON CAME OUT! HOORAY! downloading it as we speak from itunes. woot!
.. that's really it i guess.
well, i'm off to fight off spiders and hopefully find none.
lovelove.
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good reads or good websites.
Team Van Voorst - Paige updates her life as wife, mom, and general frugal lady!
LG & Brian Alsbury - LisaGrace writes about being a new wife, matters of the heart, budgets and goals, and general awesome things.
Changing Again - Insight to Danielle's crazy world.
The Alexanders - Jess and Mike moved to Japan. Here is their side of the world.
Simple Mom - A great website devoted to simplicity.
Remodeling This Life. - Simple. Frugal. Fabulous. (She did an AMAZING home remodel based soley on cash.)
Mint - The EASIEST, most-AMAZING, FREE way to build a budget.
design*sponge. - Creative and original design ideas.
Organizing Your Way. - A personalized approach to decluttering your life.
SmittenKitchen - Seriously some of the BEST recipes i've ever come across. SO awesome.
go, mordecai!
good buys.
rare bird finds. - a collection of unique items.
fredflare! - a shop full of fun and functionality.
[etsy] - if you want anything handmade or vintage, look here.
mighty goods. - an updated collection of fun things.
threadless. - tshirts designed by everyday people.
raygun. - formerly smash, this is an independant shop in des moines that specializes in awesome shirts.
wildcat. wild...cat.
other good websites.
questionable content. - my favorite webcomic by jeph jacques. (contains swearing and adult situations.)
postsecret. - updated every sunday, this blog contains secrets sent in by individuals all over the world.
cute overload. - bad day? stare at picture of cute things. it helps.
is that a tic-tac?
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