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i always wanted to be a tenenbaum
you, know?
i am a twenty-three year old darling girl.
i am not married, i have no children, and i didn't graduate from college. but..
i draw birds and robots; i read books; i laugh till i cry; i love until my heart bursts; i sometimes paint my face or arms with stripes if i'm bored; i create; i play guitar. i am not impressive, but i am me.
i am addicted to Jesus Christ. He never stops loving, never stops giving, and there is always more of Him. He is the perfect addiction. no one else can satisfy.
These are all just mostly vague details. If you want me, come find me. But, I promise, at the very least, you'll think I'm nice.
things i like
(and i like a lot of things).
museums.// theme parks.// zoos.// aquariums.// road trips.// naps.// reading, and lots of reading. especially in unconventional places.// being silly.// going to goodwill to find hidden treasures.// traveling.// new things.// vintage things. record players, records, old cameras, old radios, vintage clothes, etc.// learning new things.// exploring new places.// building forts out of pillows and/or blankets.// getting mail.// finding new ways to stay organized.// old books that smell like yummy old books.// the smell of colored pencils, and crayons.// the internet, for without it, i might not have some very great friends that i love so dearly.// squirrels.// musicals.// live plays.// daisies, and trees.// thai food.// laughing.// socks.// people you meet that are so amazing they make you strive for greatness, not in competition, but just out of the pure fact that you've seen potential, and was found to be wasting yours.// living a simple life.// holding hands.// the rare moments in life where i don't feel self conscious.// watching home videos.// hideabeds.// thrift stores the size of target.// target for that matter.// poking people in the nose and saying "beep" at the same time.// candles and lanterns and kerosene lamps.// cupcakes.// showers, washing my hands, and brushing my teeth.// sitting on rooftops.// the feel of new shirts.// warm, summer nights.// making things for people.// old shoes from friends.// macaroni and cheese.// having great times of talk with God.// organic, antibiotic-free, preservative-free, artificial flavoring/color-free, no refined sugar or grain food. (just the way God intended.)// love.
things i listen to
currently:
death cab for cutie. feist. animal collective. modest mouse. owen. iron & wine. mother mother. eisley. her space holiday. school of seven bells. dear and the headlights. the weepies. arcade fire. the format.
and when my heart needs to beat
t-pain. rhianna. jay-z. kanye west. flo-rida. ne-yo. justin timberlake. (all hopefully edited.)
things i watch
when life slows for a moment.
the office. my boys. saturday night live. arrested development.
cinema light
that makes my heart glow
the royal tenenbaums. dedication. juno. stranger than fiction. hook. eternal sunshine. garden state. empire of the sun. caddyshack. ghostbusters. jurassic park. closer. iron giant. turner & hooch. an affair to remember. eagle vs. shark. lars and the real girl. pineapple express. the life aquatic. (500) days of summer. the hangover. up. and in all honesty, avatar in 3D was pretty amazing.
paper and ink
with feelings and thought
cars & trucks & things that go - richard scarry
little bear - maurice sendak
the giving tree - shel silverstein
the quietest cricket - eric carle
there is a monster at the end of this book - grover
crazylove - francis chan
awake - erwin raphael mcmanus
seizing your divine moment - erwin raphael mcmanus
the journey towards relevance - kary oberbrunner
no compromise - melody green
but you can't raise boys to be scared of life.
You got to brew some recklessness into them.
The Lord has always been the One who stirs hearts to give of their resources and primarily I am asking Him to stir up those who will financially sow as partners with His kingdom advancing in and through my life.
Please take time to prayerfully consider becoming a monthly financial partner, allowing the Lord to pour through you, as He is the Source of all provision.
One-time donations are very helpful. Relational monthly partners who want to share in what God is doing in and through my life will provide enabling to focus wholeheartedly on His Word and His ways.
If you want to use another method besides paypal to help donate, let me know.
Contributions made directly to me are "love contributions," and are NOT tax deductible.
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could you muster at least a hello?
Wednesday, March 31, 2010 @ 1:11 AM
oh, my darling friends.
as i'm researching my analytics.. i'm noticing that i have a lot of readers, but not a lot of comments. and some of you are from very far away states or countries!
US/CA:
Iowa
South Dakota
Kentucky
California
Wisconsin
New York
District of Columbia
Illinois
Pennsylvania
Europe/Asia:
Norway
Netherlands
London, UK
Sheffield, UK
Japan (hi, jess! i fixed it!)
now, i hope i don't give you the creeps for tracking my reader base. and please don't let this stop you from reading. i can peg who most of you are just because you're like the only person i know in the state (hi, shuk. :)
.. but for a few of them, i can't figure out who you are.
so, kentucky, pennsylvania, and anyone in europe... mind saying hello? you don't have to, naturally. but it'd be nice if you did. plus, kentucky, you keep coming back and i've had 10 hits from you just in a few days.
anyway. it's just nice to know someone is reading. even if you're not willing to say who you are.
as for the rest of you.. *shakes fist* i know where you liiiiivvve! just kidding. you don't have to comment. i know it's you.
but anyway. that's all, really.
that and the fact that i totally can't sleep.
(shock of the century.)
i've used like a half a box of kleenex, my nose is almost rubbed raw from it all, i still can't breathe and my head feels like it's going to explode. i'm like exhausted from the day, but totally not sleepy. and i keep watching episodes of south park so i can fall asleep. (which is totally lame.)
oh, hey. while i have you, can i get your opinion? i'm going to a wedding next week back home and i haven't been there in ...five years?.., so naturally, i want to look great. i'm thinking of buying this dress, but a.)i'm not sure if it's too much white to wear to the wedding (that rule is still in effect, right?) or b.)if it's even that cute. i know the auction ended, there is another one up, but the ended one has the better pictures. it's such a cute dress in my opinion, and i think it'd work. but i figured i'd gather input from outside sources.
lets see.. anything else i could write about..?
this headache is murdering all of my writing inspiration.
but i was thinking about something earlier today.
i was looking at pictures of kids i knew when they were younger, and how grown up they all were and.. they looked so confident. so.. self-assured. now, i'm not sure how with loving, Godly parents i seemed to have missed that lesson in life, but i ... i've kind of had enough.
it takes a lot of energy to be embarrassed, camera shy, insecure, and whatever else.
frankly, i'm tired.
so. i'm done with that. (more or less.)
i don't want to have to analyze every picture on facebook and untag myself mercilessly if it's not the best picture of me. i've honestly spent hours of my life doing that. i'm not a model. i don't need to constantly "show my best side". plus, i'm neurotic enough that i know every last detail and flaw i have that i dislike, so naturally i zone in. similar to when you have a small stain on your shirt that is totally unnoticeable to everyone else, but you know it's there so you freak out. same scenario. and there are so many things i am dissatisfied with in regards to my physical appearance that it is often overwhelming.
now, please PLEASE, do not misread my words. i am not saying this with a super weepy sad T_T face. i'm just being plain honest, with a smile on my face. (sometimes i wonder if videologs would be a better format for me.. i could write out the script and then just talk. ha.) i once posted an entry like this a few years back and i got a mass of very nice comments of people telling me how lovely i am. now, don't get me wrong, they were very generous comments, but that wasn't the point of my entry. the mood is entirely different. bah, [/disclaimer] ha.
but my whole point is.. i don't like that version of me. she's not confident, she's not overflowing with God's love and truth, and she's not someone i want to be any longer.
it's gonna be hard.
very, very hard at times.
but i'm going to try and just.. be comfortable in my own skin. and try and break the mindsets that constantly chain me to this black hole i'm constantly trying to escape.
so. no more of that.
no more not accepting compliments just because i'm oh-so-certain that you're lying.
no more jokingly saying mean things about myself. (i.e. - stop poking my squishy bits. [my tummy].)
no more reinforcing bad behavior mindsets. (does this make me look stupid? it does. i know it does.)
i want to be a confident, carefree, comfortable, easy going person.
'cause that seems like it's a lot less work.
so. we started off with me asking you to say hello and now we're ending on me saying goodbye to a plethora of bad habits.
NEAT! 2 comments
read it back to me, pietro.
good reads or good websites.
Team Van Voorst - Paige updates her life as wife, mom, and general frugal lady!
LG & Brian Alsbury - LisaGrace writes about being a new wife, matters of the heart, budgets and goals, and general awesome things.
Changing Again - Insight to Danielle's crazy world.
The Alexanders - Jess and Mike moved to Japan. Here is their side of the world.
Simple Mom - A great website devoted to simplicity.
Remodeling This Life. - Simple. Frugal. Fabulous. (She did an AMAZING home remodel based soley on cash.)
Mint - The EASIEST, most-AMAZING, FREE way to build a budget.
design*sponge. - Creative and original design ideas.
Organizing Your Way. - A personalized approach to decluttering your life.
SmittenKitchen - Seriously some of the BEST recipes i've ever come across. SO awesome.
go, mordecai!
good buys.
rare bird finds. - a collection of unique items.
fredflare! - a shop full of fun and functionality.
[etsy] - if you want anything handmade or vintage, look here.
mighty goods. - an updated collection of fun things.
threadless. - tshirts designed by everyday people.
raygun. - formerly smash, this is an independant shop in des moines that specializes in awesome shirts.
wildcat. wild...cat.
other good websites.
questionable content. - my favorite webcomic by jeph jacques. (contains swearing and adult situations.)
postsecret. - updated every sunday, this blog contains secrets sent in by individuals all over the world.
cute overload. - bad day? stare at picture of cute things. it helps.
is that a tic-tac?
layout credit.
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Inspiration : indreamsmaybe
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