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i always wanted to be a tenenbaum
you, know?
i am a twenty-three year old darling girl.
i am not married, i have no children, and i didn't graduate from college. but..
i draw birds and robots; i read books; i laugh till i cry; i love until my heart bursts; i sometimes paint my face or arms with stripes if i'm bored; i create; i play guitar. i am not impressive, but i am me.
i am addicted to Jesus Christ. He never stops loving, never stops giving, and there is always more of Him. He is the perfect addiction. no one else can satisfy.
These are all just mostly vague details. If you want me, come find me. But, I promise, at the very least, you'll think I'm nice.
things i like
(and i like a lot of things).
museums.// theme parks.// zoos.// aquariums.// road trips.// naps.// reading, and lots of reading. especially in unconventional places.// being silly.// going to goodwill to find hidden treasures.// traveling.// new things.// vintage things. record players, records, old cameras, old radios, vintage clothes, etc.// learning new things.// exploring new places.// building forts out of pillows and/or blankets.// getting mail.// finding new ways to stay organized.// old books that smell like yummy old books.// the smell of colored pencils, and crayons.// the internet, for without it, i might not have some very great friends that i love so dearly.// squirrels.// musicals.// live plays.// daisies, and trees.// thai food.// laughing.// socks.// people you meet that are so amazing they make you strive for greatness, not in competition, but just out of the pure fact that you've seen potential, and was found to be wasting yours.// living a simple life.// holding hands.// the rare moments in life where i don't feel self conscious.// watching home videos.// hideabeds.// thrift stores the size of target.// target for that matter.// poking people in the nose and saying "beep" at the same time.// candles and lanterns and kerosene lamps.// cupcakes.// showers, washing my hands, and brushing my teeth.// sitting on rooftops.// the feel of new shirts.// warm, summer nights.// making things for people.// old shoes from friends.// macaroni and cheese.// having great times of talk with God.// organic, antibiotic-free, preservative-free, artificial flavoring/color-free, no refined sugar or grain food. (just the way God intended.)// love.
things i listen to
currently:
death cab for cutie. feist. animal collective. modest mouse. owen. iron & wine. mother mother. eisley. her space holiday. school of seven bells. dear and the headlights. the weepies. arcade fire. the format.
and when my heart needs to beat
t-pain. rhianna. jay-z. kanye west. flo-rida. ne-yo. justin timberlake. (all hopefully edited.)
things i watch
when life slows for a moment.
the office. my boys. saturday night live. arrested development.
cinema light
that makes my heart glow
the royal tenenbaums. dedication. juno. stranger than fiction. hook. eternal sunshine. garden state. empire of the sun. caddyshack. ghostbusters. jurassic park. closer. iron giant. turner & hooch. an affair to remember. eagle vs. shark. lars and the real girl. pineapple express. the life aquatic. (500) days of summer. the hangover. up. and in all honesty, avatar in 3D was pretty amazing.
paper and ink
with feelings and thought
cars & trucks & things that go - richard scarry
little bear - maurice sendak
the giving tree - shel silverstein
the quietest cricket - eric carle
there is a monster at the end of this book - grover
crazylove - francis chan
awake - erwin raphael mcmanus
seizing your divine moment - erwin raphael mcmanus
the journey towards relevance - kary oberbrunner
no compromise - melody green
but you can't raise boys to be scared of life.
You got to brew some recklessness into them.
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hello, from ihop-kc!
Monday, April 12, 2010 @ 10:51 AM
(jess, i forgot to mention, i'm gonna throw your stats off a bit and come up as kansas city, mo. just an fyi :)
man.
God is SO good!
so merciful.
so kind.
so loving!
i get small glimpses of the full majesty of his goodness and it's just overwhelming!
my heart is healing, friends.
for those of you playing at home, spence and i are .. 'under construction'. and it's very painful and i feel now less the pain of what happened, but more the pain of loss.
but even more faithfulness from God erupts. that's like.. the best thing. the emptier i get, the more God fills. the more i hurt, the more He loves. i can't lose :)
for now, i came down to KC out of retreat. my heart felt so much that i literally thought many times i was going to throw up out of hurt. and i felt pulled down into God's presence. (which is totally a great place to be.) ((not that God is only in IHOP-KC. He's everywhere. it's just a favorite place of His.))
so i've been here since thursday night.. and i was going to leave yesterday, but four people told me that I should stay.
one person said i should stay through the week,
the other person said i should stay for two weeks,
the other person said i should stay for a month,
and the last said i should stay permanently.
i'm going with small increments now :) but either way God is telling me to stay. which is totally fine with me! i don't like sioux falls anyway, haha, AND (and this is the most amazing part) i'm actually CLOSER to ames than i was before! by like an hour less! so God is doing some amazing stuff in my heart and with me and ... i've fallen into the Spirit in a way that's indescribable. seeing things that i could have never seen before. knowing things i shouldn't know. i'm finally walking into the gifts and the calling that God has given me. it's very peaceful. praise God for His mercy and His faithfulness that even when i run in the opposite direction, He's still so very kind to me; loving me while he gently redirects me. He's so good. and i have friends here and i'm making friends ((SUCH a big deal)) and my family will be here soon. so .. i feel very ... 'rushed' in the matter? i guess? just because it's all happening so quickly, but it's like a whirlwind. and it's good. so .. who knows where God is leading me.
but just to check in with all of you that are concerned, and i thank you so very much for it, i am okay. sometimes i'm golden and shining with perfection. and sometimes i'm still sad. but i'm so glad that the blood of Christ covers this offense against me. i don't need to hold debts against him for the pain that's in my heart. Christ died for that. Jesus already paid for it. and it's good. it's great.
but it's also a process.
at the service i was at last night, it was on forgiveness and afterwards i asked the guy to pray for me since his big forgiveness moment was also towards someone in a relationship. i barely got words out when i started to just weep out of pain, and he told me that he saw me walking hand in hand with God but that i was trying to run and God was trying to walk. (anyone had this happen with kids before, haha.) but he said that i had a broken leg, and i wanted to get to where i was going which is why i was running. but i needed to slow down. and go through the process.
which is true. i was hoping God would release me from all the pain, but just like a broken leg, it needs to be set and healed. and that does take time. so i'm (reluctantly) at times going through the process of healing. but like i said, God is good and merciful. so i will be obedient and i will go slower.
but anyway, this is all far too long for what i intended on being a short "hey, i'm okay" entry. but really. i'm golden. and God is super duper good. 3 comments
read it back to me, pietro.
good reads or good websites.
Team Van Voorst - Paige updates her life as wife, mom, and general frugal lady!
LG & Brian Alsbury - LisaGrace writes about being a new wife, matters of the heart, budgets and goals, and general awesome things.
Changing Again - Insight to Danielle's crazy world.
The Alexanders - Jess and Mike moved to Japan. Here is their side of the world.
Simple Mom - A great website devoted to simplicity.
Remodeling This Life. - Simple. Frugal. Fabulous. (She did an AMAZING home remodel based soley on cash.)
Mint - The EASIEST, most-AMAZING, FREE way to build a budget.
design*sponge. - Creative and original design ideas.
Organizing Your Way. - A personalized approach to decluttering your life.
SmittenKitchen - Seriously some of the BEST recipes i've ever come across. SO awesome.
go, mordecai!
good buys.
rare bird finds. - a collection of unique items.
fredflare! - a shop full of fun and functionality.
[etsy] - if you want anything handmade or vintage, look here.
mighty goods. - an updated collection of fun things.
threadless. - tshirts designed by everyday people.
raygun. - formerly smash, this is an independant shop in des moines that specializes in awesome shirts.
wildcat. wild...cat.
other good websites.
questionable content. - my favorite webcomic by jeph jacques. (contains swearing and adult situations.)
postsecret. - updated every sunday, this blog contains secrets sent in by individuals all over the world.
cute overload. - bad day? stare at picture of cute things. it helps.
is that a tic-tac?
layout credit.
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